.. just woke up, got nothing to do but stare blankly on the ceiling.. thinking on what had happened to me just a few days ago,.. something which I can say,. helped me grow..( and I don’t mean that literally..;p) Ever since, I’ve always been the strong one.. that happy-go-lucky gal who seems to joke around most of the time.. someone who does not take problems seriously.. haha.. yup.. that’s me.. in their eyes…

Well.. I don’t blame these people.. coz I make it a point that they would see me like that. The world is already crowded with drama queens, why should I be joining them?? Besides, if I’d be vocal about every dilemmas I’m encountering.. somehow, those people I’d be confiding with, will most likely feel a bit low and struggle for an advice or a good solution for my problem.. which is so unfair for their part.. I mean, there they were, minding their own business, feeling okay or even cheery, but because of me and what I’m about to tell them, these positive auras they might have at the moment would disappear because for sure, they will feel sorry for me.. and that’s bad.. why should you pull a person down just so you’ll be able to ease your pains? right??? haha.. you’ll probably disagree with what I’m saying right now and that’s fine with me.. probably you might be thinking that its nonsense or pointless.. but that’s what I believe in.. and besides, I’m entitled to my own opinion right??

So, going back.. I’ve been like this ever since I can remember.. whenever I have a crisis on my so-called-life.. seldom will I let people notice that I’m not fine.. I make it a point that they will see me as always.. no worries, fears and tears.. and I guess.. I’m good at it.. haha.. coz often times I can escape their pitiful eyes and low toned voices.. just recently.. I was able to watch a basketball game(animo!) with my friends even though I’m feeling low.. maybe one of my lowest? and they didn’t seem to noticed…I’m that good! hehe.. I thought that I would be like that… hmm forever?? well.. at least that’s what I thought.. but then.. unexpectedly.. I blurted out this certain problem to someone.. I’m not sure how it happened and why I did it.. I was surprised that I was able to let someone enter the other part of me.. the part that I don’t let others see… (and was hoping for the fact that nobody will be able to,..) I was uneasy at first.. coz I don’t want that “someone” to be affected, but explanations were made and that “someone” was able to clear my mind which enabled me to open up more easily.. and come to think of it.. I’m glad I did.. coz this “someone” understood me easily.. like a mind reader of some sort.. helped me realize certain things in life.. this someone might not be a problem solver,.. but this “someone” surely makes my life easier..

hmm..just looking at my site makes me wanna...**** hehehe.. but you have to admit.. its a good concept.. bowels of my mind.. hahaha.. big thanks to pmgf14 for this template.. besides.. its nice to look at right?? i mean.. who wouldnt want to have a lovely room like that..?

nothing much happened this day.. a typical tuesday.. as always.. well.. except for the fact that i was amazed how lasallians take UAAP seriously.. dead serious if i may add.. having to stand for several hours and cutting class just to buy a ticket for the championship game this thursday says it all.. and i believe.. so was the administration,.. i mean.. having a cashier where students can buy the tickets?! when i first saw that long line of students.. its like the line you see when everytime tuition fees are payed.. i guess this upcoming game is really something..

i just hope that classes in the afternoon would be cancelled.. so that i won't have to attend the most boring class ever.. E-C-O-N-O-M-I-C-S!!! ugh! hate that subject.. hate it! hate it! and hate it more! well, at least for the very first time.. she didnt call me to recite.. guess this is a lucky day for me.. i dont know if its me or what.. but it seems that im the "apple of her eyes".. first meeting: ".. how about that lady in pink".. second meeting:"... how about that lady in orange" gRrrrrr!!!! and its getting more specific everytime.. whats next?? " how about that girl in ***, wearing a necklace that has a heart pendant, chinita eyes, shoulder length technicolored hair, writing on a violet notebook using a tombo ballpen...?!??!?" oh well.. at least she forgot to call me today.. so i guess.. today is a great day for me.. come to think of it.. today is really good coz i get to have a cool new cellphone accessory.. thanks to ngek47.. hey.. speaking of ngek47.. big thanks to you!! that's really nice of you.. especially when you said na its libre na.. hehehe.. kidding aside.. thanks a lot talaga....